Seasons of waiting are just before you have to move. If God has called you to wait -- he is about to make you move. And the longer the wait is the bigger the move is.
While following I catch myself so often second guessing a lead because I don't want to move too soon. I am so afraid of jumping the lead, therefore I hesitate which is just as bad. I am not sure, I don't want to make a mistake -- I was given a lead and I don't know exactly what move it is... AHHH! what do I do??? I don' t know where I'm going!! Eeep!
You just have to move with it... follow the momentum, it will take you somewhere.
Don't be afraid do leap out of a season of waiting when God move you to. Go for it. Honestly you are never going to be completely sure. A leader leads me forward... and then what? I have to move even if I'm not sure how.
Let go of that fear of mistake, don't be afraid to jump in. God has put you through a season of waiting and now he has lead you to move. Go for it... if you heart is truly wrapped up in his, then you will be okay. You have been faithful, so will He.
I am talking mostly to myself here, I don't know where I am going... and I have been told a very peaceful "wait" -- and I am enjoying this time of waiting... I just pray that I will not be too afraid to jump when the times comes. I pray that when I feel Him lead me that I will move without hesitation. I am actively waiting... so I can act.
Don't be afraid that you are wrong, Jesus is the best leader, he will show you the way. That first step- sometimes you just have to go for it.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Thinking.
Who thinks too much? Yeah. I am typically not one of you. I make things simple, easy. Life is not complicated unless you make it that way. Life can be simple -- that does not mean boring - -but it does not have to be hard to understand, ALL of the time. Yes I know there are things that throw us for a loop. Trust me, I am there. But a way that makes things simple is faith. My God is good. My Savior is loving. My Creator is in control. I am okay. I tend to not over think things... then I also tend not to think things through. Yes. I ended up in Mexico for a month on a whim and I walked cross country for 9 days with thousands of women... (odd little adventure of mine). But the point is. I just jumped into that. I did not ponder, nor mull over this -- I had the opportunity. Why Not?
Why not? I say that maybe a bit to often.
So now that I have confessed the faults to my last of contemplation I would now like to expound upon its virtues. Thinking too much can get you in a much trouble as not thinking enough. Not jumping may be safer, but how many times do you think yourself out of an adventure?
Let me illustrate with dancing.
Recently I have been learning dance from an AMAZING teacher. I want to be a good dancer -- so I've got to work at it. And this teacher has pointed out many many many many many things I do not do right and things I should be doing that I simply don't do because I didn't know I should. And when I do these things right. WOW! It feels SO good when you do it right. And with his pointers I seen even MORE things I need to work on....
Before I just danced. I just did what I could and had fun doing it. It was simple. It was easy. But I would NEVER trade what I have learned over though experience and teaching for anything.
But I do get myself into a wee bit of trouble. Now I have SO much to think about! And I try to think about it all at once. I want SO badly to do it right. I want to be a good follow, I want to be a good student. i want to make my teacher proud -- but what happens when I think so much?
When I think so much I don't dance. I'm just going through the motions of dance. I am not DANCING. There is a difference. Dancing is natural, making my body obey my mind is not. Dancing flows through the music, through the leader, through the follow-- there can't be a buffer in the brain. YES every thing I learn I put into my dancing, but it cannot be my conscious effort all the time. There is no freedom there. No dancing. No fun. So as I learn more and more and more. I have to learn to BE not to do.
As with the Walk of a Believer, we ARE we don't DO. What I mean is, I do not think a true follow of the Messiah should have to try very hard to be a witness to those around him or her. It is not a conscious effort -- it is who you are, what you are. In Romans 8 it talks about the Spirit being life -- that life flows through us, we shouldn't have to force it out. WHO you are dictates what you do. Following Christ is not something we try very hard to force ourselves to do. We do not learn his laws and rules and ideas and try very hard to squish ourselves into them. Jesus changes who we are-- we strive for his likeness with whole hearts. This is not an easy thing, but yet, it is a state of being-- not doing.
Being a dancer is not knowing what you should do and how you should hold your body. It is moving. It is WHAT you are not what you do.
Why not? I say that maybe a bit to often.
So now that I have confessed the faults to my last of contemplation I would now like to expound upon its virtues. Thinking too much can get you in a much trouble as not thinking enough. Not jumping may be safer, but how many times do you think yourself out of an adventure?
Let me illustrate with dancing.
Recently I have been learning dance from an AMAZING teacher. I want to be a good dancer -- so I've got to work at it. And this teacher has pointed out many many many many many things I do not do right and things I should be doing that I simply don't do because I didn't know I should. And when I do these things right. WOW! It feels SO good when you do it right. And with his pointers I seen even MORE things I need to work on....
Before I just danced. I just did what I could and had fun doing it. It was simple. It was easy. But I would NEVER trade what I have learned over though experience and teaching for anything.
But I do get myself into a wee bit of trouble. Now I have SO much to think about! And I try to think about it all at once. I want SO badly to do it right. I want to be a good follow, I want to be a good student. i want to make my teacher proud -- but what happens when I think so much?
When I think so much I don't dance. I'm just going through the motions of dance. I am not DANCING. There is a difference. Dancing is natural, making my body obey my mind is not. Dancing flows through the music, through the leader, through the follow-- there can't be a buffer in the brain. YES every thing I learn I put into my dancing, but it cannot be my conscious effort all the time. There is no freedom there. No dancing. No fun. So as I learn more and more and more. I have to learn to BE not to do.
As with the Walk of a Believer, we ARE we don't DO. What I mean is, I do not think a true follow of the Messiah should have to try very hard to be a witness to those around him or her. It is not a conscious effort -- it is who you are, what you are. In Romans 8 it talks about the Spirit being life -- that life flows through us, we shouldn't have to force it out. WHO you are dictates what you do. Following Christ is not something we try very hard to force ourselves to do. We do not learn his laws and rules and ideas and try very hard to squish ourselves into them. Jesus changes who we are-- we strive for his likeness with whole hearts. This is not an easy thing, but yet, it is a state of being-- not doing.
Being a dancer is not knowing what you should do and how you should hold your body. It is moving. It is WHAT you are not what you do.
Be prepared. (how many of you started singing?)
I have of late been pondering the concept of waiting. It seems that I, and several of my dearest friends are in a season of wait. For some it can be described at a time of dread of the unknown, for some a period of expectation, some hope, some a stall out-- for me it is a season of preparation. (I so badly want to burst into the song from the Lion King -- Some Disney friends are rubbing off on me. )
Be prepared. What am I being prepared for? I have no idea. That has been the theme lately. I don't know, and I don't have to-- it is not my responsibility to move... yet.
When I dance half the time I am waiting for the next move to be lead. If I think I know what is coming and I act on that I over jump the leader and mess the whole thing up. If I am afraid to move -- second guessing the lead I felt, again, I have botched things up. (Thank God for great leaders who can handle my following and still have amazing dances!) So what should I be? I am prepared, I am waiting. Every muscle in my body is ready to move, my balance is stable, my weight committed -- I am ready to go! Go where dunno. But I am ready. Waiting takes as much skill and strength as doing, but when the times comes we cannot hold back.
Perhaps God is waiting for us to be on the right foot, or even he is wanting us to build up enough momentum to fly into the new adventure he has for us. But whatever awaits, are we prepared? Waiting is not a bad thing, it is simply the compression before the tension. The Potential energy before kinetic. And when you have been given, granted even, a long period of waiting thank God, because he is about to do something AWESOME. Ready?
Be prepared. What am I being prepared for? I have no idea. That has been the theme lately. I don't know, and I don't have to-- it is not my responsibility to move... yet.
When I dance half the time I am waiting for the next move to be lead. If I think I know what is coming and I act on that I over jump the leader and mess the whole thing up. If I am afraid to move -- second guessing the lead I felt, again, I have botched things up. (Thank God for great leaders who can handle my following and still have amazing dances!) So what should I be? I am prepared, I am waiting. Every muscle in my body is ready to move, my balance is stable, my weight committed -- I am ready to go! Go where dunno. But I am ready. Waiting takes as much skill and strength as doing, but when the times comes we cannot hold back.
Perhaps God is waiting for us to be on the right foot, or even he is wanting us to build up enough momentum to fly into the new adventure he has for us. But whatever awaits, are we prepared? Waiting is not a bad thing, it is simply the compression before the tension. The Potential energy before kinetic. And when you have been given, granted even, a long period of waiting thank God, because he is about to do something AWESOME. Ready?
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Beautiful
About a year and a half ago I could have told you exactly what I wanted to do. And about a year and a half ago that changed. What pray tell has sent me into such a tail spin? Strangely what messed up my plans is something that I love.
I love dancing. I love dancing a lot. Ask anyone who knows me they will say that all I do is dance. Whilst that is not entirely true-- I wouldn't mind if it were true. So what does dance have to do with the reason why I now have no idea where my life is going? A year and a half ago I thought I was called to be a missionary, but now I am fairly sure I am not. That doesn't mean I have ditched the idea, but it has changed.
I have always desired adventure in my life, far off places... exotic lands... strange, amazing cultures... I have been and seen all those things, and I think that my heart will be most happy with what God has planned... even if I have no idea what that may be. Even if that is where I never thought I would end up. And now I am not trying to figure it out. I am waiting. Waiting on God to show me the next step, that is how it works ya know! A good leader doesn't typically say "Hey lets do that move... NOW!" He leads it - step by step. So now I am in a step... no clue what is coming next.
Now, back to dancing. As I said, I love it, even if I am not the best, or even that good at it. But someday I will be good at it... I want to be good at it, I want to be able to teach it-- that is going to take a lot of time and work, but I have never desired a skill quite so much.
As this is becoming to long of a rant, I will continue to my point. What do I want?
I have come to a point in my life where I have no idea, and nearly nothing telling me which way to go. For a while this is bothered me greatly. I have always been the one who knows where I am going and I know what I want and I know how to work for it... but now I haven't the slightly idea. The one thing I do have are two passions in my life that have developed over this year: Dance and Women.
The reason I love dance so much is because in it I see the relationship between Christ and His church perfectly portrayed, I see the husband and wife, and most of all I see women how they are meant to be seen in both of the previously relationships.
When people do the 'describe me in one word' game girls give me "strong" or "independent" and guys typically have something along the lines of "fearsome" to describe me. So apparently I am a fearsome, strong, and independent woman. Most would not guess that where I am happiest in in the arms of a strong lead. Because there I am what I want to be, I am a woman. Yes I am strong and independent but I am also beautiful, graceful, and... following. I love to follow. I want to follow. Following, the place, the role that God placed a woman in. I want this role to been seen and valued as what it is!
Following, it takes great strength and training and ability. It also takes great trust in the leader, takes love and yes, submission. And I think it is awesome.
What I want to do with my life is show that women can be strong while being women, that we can be beautiful and that we can be followers without being less than our leading counterparts or overpowered or belittled.
There are some women who are afraid to follow because they think that they must become less than what they are. There are some who refuse to follow because they will not sacrifice their independence. There are some who dance and won't let the leader lead, and some who put themselves in someone's arms and give up on everything that they are in order to fulfill some idea that that is what womanhood is.
These are wrong ideas. True dance shows a follow -- a woman for what she is and her role for what it is. Beautiful.
Some how I want to teach this, show this. I don't know how this will pan out. It may turn out that God takes me to Israel to teach the value of women through dance. It might be that I am 'normal' I may have a normal job and lead a normal life (this is what I have always loathed) and just dance and be a dancer and God will give me the opportunity to use that for his Kingdom. God may take me somewhere else in the U.S. or across the globe. He may keep me right here in Memphis. It may mean that I support people who are already doing this.
But for a over year now it has been stewing in my brain, this is what I want to do. I want to dance, and I want women to see that being a woman is the most beautiful place in the eyes of God. And the role of a woman is not a lesser role, but a wonderful one.
So if you have read my rant I thank you for listening. And in summary I am a dancer and I love to dance and I am a woman and I love women. And I want everyone to see our -- your worth.
The End.
I love dancing. I love dancing a lot. Ask anyone who knows me they will say that all I do is dance. Whilst that is not entirely true-- I wouldn't mind if it were true. So what does dance have to do with the reason why I now have no idea where my life is going? A year and a half ago I thought I was called to be a missionary, but now I am fairly sure I am not. That doesn't mean I have ditched the idea, but it has changed.
I have always desired adventure in my life, far off places... exotic lands... strange, amazing cultures... I have been and seen all those things, and I think that my heart will be most happy with what God has planned... even if I have no idea what that may be. Even if that is where I never thought I would end up. And now I am not trying to figure it out. I am waiting. Waiting on God to show me the next step, that is how it works ya know! A good leader doesn't typically say "Hey lets do that move... NOW!" He leads it - step by step. So now I am in a step... no clue what is coming next.
Now, back to dancing. As I said, I love it, even if I am not the best, or even that good at it. But someday I will be good at it... I want to be good at it, I want to be able to teach it-- that is going to take a lot of time and work, but I have never desired a skill quite so much.
As this is becoming to long of a rant, I will continue to my point. What do I want?
I have come to a point in my life where I have no idea, and nearly nothing telling me which way to go. For a while this is bothered me greatly. I have always been the one who knows where I am going and I know what I want and I know how to work for it... but now I haven't the slightly idea. The one thing I do have are two passions in my life that have developed over this year: Dance and Women.
The reason I love dance so much is because in it I see the relationship between Christ and His church perfectly portrayed, I see the husband and wife, and most of all I see women how they are meant to be seen in both of the previously relationships.
When people do the 'describe me in one word' game girls give me "strong" or "independent" and guys typically have something along the lines of "fearsome" to describe me. So apparently I am a fearsome, strong, and independent woman. Most would not guess that where I am happiest in in the arms of a strong lead. Because there I am what I want to be, I am a woman. Yes I am strong and independent but I am also beautiful, graceful, and... following. I love to follow. I want to follow. Following, the place, the role that God placed a woman in. I want this role to been seen and valued as what it is!
Following, it takes great strength and training and ability. It also takes great trust in the leader, takes love and yes, submission. And I think it is awesome.
What I want to do with my life is show that women can be strong while being women, that we can be beautiful and that we can be followers without being less than our leading counterparts or overpowered or belittled.
There are some women who are afraid to follow because they think that they must become less than what they are. There are some who refuse to follow because they will not sacrifice their independence. There are some who dance and won't let the leader lead, and some who put themselves in someone's arms and give up on everything that they are in order to fulfill some idea that that is what womanhood is.
These are wrong ideas. True dance shows a follow -- a woman for what she is and her role for what it is. Beautiful.
Some how I want to teach this, show this. I don't know how this will pan out. It may turn out that God takes me to Israel to teach the value of women through dance. It might be that I am 'normal' I may have a normal job and lead a normal life (this is what I have always loathed) and just dance and be a dancer and God will give me the opportunity to use that for his Kingdom. God may take me somewhere else in the U.S. or across the globe. He may keep me right here in Memphis. It may mean that I support people who are already doing this.
But for a over year now it has been stewing in my brain, this is what I want to do. I want to dance, and I want women to see that being a woman is the most beautiful place in the eyes of God. And the role of a woman is not a lesser role, but a wonderful one.
So if you have read my rant I thank you for listening. And in summary I am a dancer and I love to dance and I am a woman and I love women. And I want everyone to see our -- your worth.
The End.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Little Words
Here are the two verses that I use to pick a bible Translation; Isaiah 6 - it says Holy Holy Holy is the LORD God of Hosts. (Not God Almighty - Revelations 4:8 says Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty) This is my own nit picky Hebrew word issue. Even I can tell the difference between Ts'varot (Hosts) and Elshaddai (almighty) they don't even look alike in Hebrew or mean similar things... sorry this is my pet peeve, I shall stop now. And John 11:6 is the other translation issue -- this one came from John Piper, and its mistranslation changes the meaning drastically -- not just one name of God to another Legit name of God -- This is the mistake of putting BUT where is should say SO.
The passage says:
4 But when Jesus heard it he said, "This illness does not lead to death. It is for the glory of God, so that the Son of God may be glorified through it." 5 Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6 So, when he heard that Lazarus was ill, he stayed two days longer in the place where he was."
Lost of Translations say; "Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. 6 But,when he heard that Lazarus was ill, he stayed two days longer in the place where he was."
How much does that change the meaning - He loved then, but he waited... or He loved then SO he waited. Cool huh?(So check you translation...)
Now with that said I will get the to point I wanted to make to begin with. I came upon that verse the other day... I don't know why - I think it was to make it in my new Bible or something like that. But as I looked at it and pondered the profoundness of the SO rather than the BUT I found myself thinking about a friend of mine. And he'll know who he is if he reads this...
But moving on, this friend I love and respect a lot, his simple way of trusting God has impacted my life a lot and I love him for it. This friend has had some tough times, but has had faith through them. One time he said to me "Yeah, I was unemployed and didn't have any options..." AND HERE IS MY POINT "so I went down to Memphis Union Mission and volunteered."
Okay, let us look at that statement again, "Yeah, I was unemployed and didn't have any options so I went down to Memphis Union Mission and volunteered."
and another time he said "God has taken everything that I have ever wanted so I trust him"
Let us compare
"Yeah, I was unemployed and didn't have any options but I went down to Memphis Union Mission and volunteered."
"God has taken everything that I have ever wanted but I trust him"
Those may not have been his exact words, but I know that he said SO rather than BUT. That little word changes so many things.
"I lost everything I ever loved SO I gave everything up to Jesus"
"I have no idea what to do with my life SO I will follow Christ"
"I have no reason to hope, SO I find my hope in the LORD"
"I have no strength left in me SO I find my power in the Cross"
Replace all those SO s with But s it is a big difference isn't it?
A but and a so make a big difference in attitude toward God and toward life.
Jesus loved Mary and Martha So he let their Brother die... strange thing to do in love -- but they got to see God's glory and Jesus' power on display. He loved them SO he gave their family and miracle that brought more glory that healing. I think that is pretty cool.
I have nothing SO I trust Jesus, I know nothing about where or what I am going to do in my life SO I trust him. I love him SO I follow him, he saved me SO I serve him. He is GOD so I will wait for him to lead me.
I like little words.
Ps. To my friend who just says these little things that spark my brain to think, hope I don't make you feel strange when I write about what you say in passing -- because you say some cool stuff -- fairly often.
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